Let me give you some insight into my insides I haven't been this confused in such a long time you can't believe I've spent just losing my mind I can't believe that 10 years have really gone by it's been a long time Had a plan for every year I've been alive a million more I've built up inside of me there's a million more that I have bottled up and that I've fucked up do you feel like the hard times are mountains you've climbed lying awake it still feels like it's '89 it's been along time those mindless days the plans that I've made the countless mistakes all the times I've changed through the years I faced all that's kept me sane every single day
*** All My Best Friends Are Metalheads ***
Do you think it's strange that there's this way of how you look at, how you act like, and how you think and pretend they're not the same as you Do you know about his strength of convictions or how she puts all her faith in religion Did you ever take the time to really discover how little we know about each other? this all becomes one more chance to keep us from saying anything and separate from everything. And all this really means you're one in a crowd and paranoid of every sound another friend you won't miss anyhow
*** Econolodged ***
Step it up my life spent round the clock has got me running on a treadmill with no time to stop and competition has put a price on time, see all the people you left behind and step on all the people that have fell behind, competition has put a price on time. Man, I'm all I've got, like it or not, I'm all I've got. I'm Econolodged.
*** History Of A Boring Town ***
Just talked to this girl who used to live on my street after all these years you're here and you remember me She said her old boyfriend packed up and headed back east but she always knew someday he would go she just got a new job but doubts it will last so lets take a drink and never think here's to the past She says it's so funny how life burns out so fast it's just another wasted day A boring life in a boring town with the same old crowd and I used to say that I'd never stay but I'm rotting here today With that same old crowd that's always been around and I always thought I'd be the first to go That same old crowd that brings me down another day in a boring town And remember when they'd look through you and then look past me we were the ones they said would always leave when you go think of me.
*** Look At Me, I'm Sandra Dee ***
Look at me I'm Sandra Dee Lousy with virginity Won't go to bed till I'm legally wed I can't I'm Sandra Dee Watch it! Hey, I'm Doris Day I was not brought up that way Won't come across even Rock Hudson lost His heart to Doris Day I don't drink I swear I don't rat my hair I get ill from one cigarette Keep your filthy paws off my silky drawers Would you pull that crap with Annette? As for you Troy Donahue I know what you wanna do You've got your crust I'm no object of lust I'm just plain Sandra Dee Elvis, Elvis, let me be Keep that pelvis far from me Just keep your cool now your starting to drool Hey, Fongul, I'm Sandra Dee
*** One Last Cigarette ***
I check the time, it's 4:00 a.m. And I just passed the westside buildings All the broken glass As I try to shake the cold away, but anyways, It's late at night and I'm about to crack And decide to just walk the tracks That I just walked yesterday.
*** Pez King ***
Watching the man up in the window it always seems to me that in 10 more years another someone may be watching me. And do I really know what goes on inside? As he dances down the street to the music in his mind, time after time. Watching the man up in the window it always seems to me that I'll be the one talking to myself as someone sits and watches me. And do I really know what goes on inside as I wonder what goes on in their little plastic minds, time after time.
*** Sobriety Is A Serious Business And Business Isn't So Good ***
So it's sunrise Sober eyes See my room spin around Crowded bars and crumbling town I'm a mess A monument To clenching fists of helplessness Oblivious to all of it Situation hopless Will all the assholes in this room please raise your right hand?
It's sunrise Sober eyes See my room spin around Crowded bars and crumbling town I'm a mess A monument To clenching fists of helplessness Oblivious to all of it Situation hopless Will all the assholes in this room please raise your right hand?
"Hi, I'm Chris and I'm an alcoholic"
*** Rock-n-Roll Pizzeria ***
Man its really strange this city never stays the same its always "I've got to keep on moving and I've got to keep on going" but maybe it's to keep itself sane that its always "I've got to keep on going, so I don't have any feeling"
So I'm on my way out of this place that has me turning numb I'm on my way, all the feeling in this place has up and gone
so with one hand on the wheel and the other out the window with a smile on my face and my middle finger up with on hand on the wheel this city's going crazy without a care that its all fucked up
*** Process ***
I've always watched the change I've watched without a sound and often wondered why I don't speak a word out loud but the world won't stop for me and I can't stop the world myself but I often wondered why the rest of them can't see for themselves the change I've found that keeps me bound without a sound there's a process in the world and no one can stop the change there's a process all around us and things never stay the same
*** Motto ***
Have you ever felt that something, you know that something that keeps you sane? and you can't explain why But you know it's what's left inside you and I know that it's that something you know that something that keeps me sane and I can't explain why when it's all I have I have left to hold onto And when I say It's everything from my highest hopes to my dumbest schemes you'll never know what it means to me. I'm just a reason away, from that something that keeps me sane
*** Nervous In The Alley ***
On a tuesday in the rain I never thought there'd come a day if I put myself to the test would I ever raise a fist would I just shut my mouth, would I just block it out? I've sworn a million times never to be left, standing with that feeling of hopelessness, just standing nervous in the alley When all is said and through would I know just what to do and if I put myself to the test would I ever raise a fist would I just shut my mouth or just block it out I've sworn a million times never to be left, standing with that feeling of hopelessness, just standing nervous in the alley Is it a change of heart, that keeps us apart and you say it's true and we know it's true when all we have left is me and you and it's so strange, when all I have left to say is I wonder what's worth fighting for?
*** Magnetic North ***
There's been borders and there'll be boundaries and there's been times misidirection's found me There's been clear heads and there'll be clean slates and times we'd find we'd pass the night away thinking Everyone here hates everyone here for doing the same thing that they do There's been new starts and they'll be no sleep and there's been times when inspiration's found me and there's been walls built and there's been worse days and times we'd find we spent the night awake thinking all those people they keep watching me all those people that hate me all those people they watch me all those people are just like me
*** Hell Looks A Lot Like L.A. ***
He got in his car and told himself to drive gotta leave it all behind if he wants to feel alive 19 and lost and never thought he'd ever leave this place vacant mind from endless grind so what's to lose anyways Another fast food job? Another 8 to 5 day? Ten minutes and two miles is just a mile too many today and you can see why it's easy to say y'know that hell looks a lot like L.A. six months ago was the last she felt alive moved down from the north and told herself she'd try 18 and lost and never thought this place would change ignored and bored the same feelings as yesterday she said it's way too much more than she could take it's one less car that's in the way y'know that hell looks a lot like L.A.
*** How's My Driving Doug Hastings ***
Friday night on coke with a crow bar, left at two in the back of Doug's car, without a plan and being fucked up, looking' to get something for ourselves.
Friday night at three at a side door, Doug said try to get the door just once more
I said man this all fucked up just looking to get something something for ourselves feeling kinda weird and thinkin' to myself fuck doug I'm not going out like this
he said man I'm all I got and I won't be missed this makes no sense it makes no sense to me this isn't the way its supposed to be
*** Shotgun ***
There was a kid so low, he couldn't stand up No money, no respect and too much bad luck Desperation had gotten to him at last It was dark Dark alley and a shot gun blast And I knew a man everyone thought Was out of his mind He had a cane and seemed to be around all the time And it's a shame, when a car rolls past It was dark Dark alley and a shot gun blast Shotgun - no one ever thinks about it Until your out of your head
*** Hopelessly Devoted To You ***
Guess mine is not the first heart broken My eyes are not the first to cry I'm not the first to know there's Just no getting over you You know I'm just a fool who's willing To sit around and wait for you But baby can't you see there's nothing else for me to do I'm hopelessly devoted to you But now there's no where to hide Since you pushed my heart aside I'm outta my head hopelessly devoted to you Hopelessly devoted to you Hopelessly devoted to you My head is saying fool forget him My heart is saying don't let go Hold on to the end that's what I intend to do I'm hopelessly devoted to you But now there's no where to hide Since you pushed my love aside I'm outta my head hopelessly devoted to you Hopelessly devoted to you Hopelessly devoted to you Blue moon, you saw me standing alone Without a dream in my heart, without a love of my own Blue moon, you knew just what I was there for You heard me saying a prayer for someone I really could care for And then suddenly appeared before me, the only one my arms could ever hold I heard somebody whisper 'please adore me' But when I looked, that moon had turned to gold - oh oh oh Blue moon, now I'm no longer alone Without a dream in my heart, without a love of my own Without a love of my own
*** Just Like Frank ***
He's just like anyone he's just like anybody he's just like frank
and I know it and he knows it it's his one sided point of view
I know it when he says it's my way, or the wrong way and I don't care about you
but to see my side wouldn't be the worst thing he could do when someone's politic blinds you and binds you to something you don't believe in and he's just like anyone... and I saw him walking on my way path third street just the other day why doesn't he understand views keep changing?
** Last One Out Of Liberty City ***
I know there comes a time when you lose faith in what you believe inside and did you know somehow it's just a spark that's a start that keeps us from the crowd. The other day this girl came up to me and asked if she used to go to school with me and kinda laughed and she said wasn't I the guy her friends always called a waste of time. I know just who I am and what's in my head is that I don't really give a damn who you think I am. When I stop and think about to where I'll be 10 years from now I wonder if the me of now would call myself washed up or watered down or part of the crowd? and the other night this guy came up to me downtown and can't believe that after 5 years I'm still around and he said, wasn't I the guy who walked these streets all night? It's such a waste of time.
*** Liquor Store ***
Now listen up and hear what I'm saying If he's not talking to himself Then he must be praying Shine my shoes and ask for a dime Then pick my pockets while I'm in line He keeps telling me the score Down at the liquor store
*** My Very Own Flag ***
Something that's inside of me It's something that I cannot see Like rules and regulations Passed down for generations
I wish I had my very own flag,
And as I walk away I can hear you say I wish that I had my own flag
*** Bigger Picture ***
Breaking down from every insult that you've taken from one sided conversations Burning out from all the minor misconceptions that just play on your frustrations your self doubt has your head so turned around there's not a catch phrase that can save you and it's not that hard to figure out disappointment doesn't have to cut to a commercial now I'm breaking down I'm burning out and it's not funny like on television when your self doubt turns you inside out it's still not funny like on television I'm passing time since I've been right and it's not funny like on television those times I've cracked with no laugh track and it wasn't funny like on television